21 years old and my parents still feel the need to micromanage my life. Now, don’t get me wrong, I love them and appreciate all they have given me, but the flaw in our relationship is that I can’t talk to them about anything that happens in my life. Our relationship is based on lies tailored to what they want to hear because they can’t handle the truth.
Sorry I’m not a perfect daughter, sorry I’m not a straight A student, sorry that I find balancing school and work really difficult, sorry I’m in a relationship with a guy who makes me a better person. I’m mostly sorry that our relationship has never been, and never can be anything more than a parent and child filled with criticism and support, but no room for mistakes.
Happy 6 months! But on the real…we’ve pretty much been exclusive since that one night last November when you told me how you felt about me. It’s crazy to see how far we’ve come in only a year. You constantly push me out of my comfort zone, provoke my thoughts, and challenge me to be a better person everyday. I can’t imagine getting through this past year without you and i can’t wait for our upcoming adventures to SoCal, Seattle, and wherever life takes us.
Relationships are funny.
I used to argue all the time, with the security of knowing he will never leave me.
Now I argue all the time, because of the insecurity that he will leave me.
Though it has only been 3 weeks, I have learned a lot about myself and the people around me. I’ve developed a new found appreciation for my parents, who without all their hard work and selflessness, I wouldn’t even have had this opportunity. I am grateful for my friends back home, who never cease to check up on me despite being miles and miles away. Even without having to talk to me, I know that they are looking out for me while I’m away. And as cheesy as it sounds, despite thinking that I’d be single when originally planning out my summer travels, I am grateful to have found somebody waiting for my return, who keeps me grounded and is always there to listen to me when I am angry, sad, happy, or homesick.
Honestly speaking, adjusting has been hard, but things are slowly looking up. Trips to Paris, Amsterdam, and Barcelona have been finalized after many complications and I am eager to see how the next 5 weeks pan out.